Thursday, December 22, 2005

Confidence

Just finished reading a book, one phrase that catches my attention,

"Too Obsessive in achieving successful results and fear of failure."

The opposite of this phrase is Confidence.

For example, in a game of football or soccer, if a player is too obsessive in winning, he will blame anyone who he thinks lacks in performance. If the opposite team scores, he would shout and gets angry, and order his team mates around to "play properly" and to stop fooling around.
If the player is in the other hand has a fear of loosing, h would lose hope fast. If the opposite team scores, he would be very worried, in his mind would says " Oh no! We will lose this game!" or "Looks like we're going to lose!" or "By the rate this goes, we're going home disappointed."
But what if a player has confidence in him, if the opposite team scores, in his mind would say "That a score from the opposite team, let score too." or when his own team scores, he wouldn't have the think of "Yes! We're winning! That wouldn't have the slightest chance as we're a good team!" but instead he would say in his mind "We have scored once, let's keep up the good work." Notice that he didn't think of Winning but instead, he maintain his performance through out the game, and when if the team does lost in the Match, he would say, "it's a great game! Enjoyed playing with them."

Confidence is very important in our lives, but some of us, know that it is important, but some doesn't even notice it when he/she doesn't have one.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

User Default

have you ever wonder?
Most of use Automated Cash Machines ( such as POSB, DBS, OCBC, MasterCard, American Express .. etc ) to withdraw money. Have you ever thought that the main thing that we use that machine is, Insert card, PIN Number, Cash Amount, Money withdrawed, and take Receipt. That is the main purpose of a User. As long as we want the money, we get it and the amount withdrawed and balance is right we are happy. We do not care who's behind that machine, is it a Lady or a Guy? Yong or Old? Big or small, all that actualy does'nt matter...right?
That's the same goes people who make use or other people, they know what they want, they know who to look for, after they got what they wanted, they leave you. Just like the machine, the people does'nt care who's behind it.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Survival

A new born human baby learns how to walk within months, but a new born four legged animal for example a deer learn how to walk within hours. Why is that so? It's for their own survival. Learn how to walk before your enemy chase after you.

The same goes for in your work area. if you're a new worker, or just entered the company. It's wise and a recommended move to learn how to "walk" as soon as possible. o one is going to be by your side to assist or help you or to make sure you are able to "walk" on your own. The only person that you ever need is yourself.

The work force or the company is just like the jungle. Although your friend may not "eat" you, but they can make others "eat" you. It's important to know who's the predator, who's the prey and who's the plant, which is the passive person. But most likely the prey would go for the plant as the plant does not eat you up, but, be aware that eatting the wrong plant may cause you undesirable consicuences. Which may lead you to becoming a easier prey for the predator to feed you.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Dream Blog: 01

It's 2:47am on my desktop clock. And it's been long since I stop staying up at night, but tonight I think I'm gone be awake at night and sleep during the day, just like what I did in the past few months.
Strange dream, or some sort. How do you feel when a friend of yours has a pointed object, which in your own view may cause harm, is being poke at you, the feeling is like
"Stop it, don't!"
"Please don't"
Like your friend continue poking that pointed object at you, scared of accident's poking your eye or hurting you. Well that how I felt just now after I woke up from a strange dream.
Dream are like over flowing flow of water out of a empty bucket. What you can't comprehend or can't process while you're awake, you tend to do it during your sleep, hence that's what dream are all about. Some may dream about a certain incident, but in end that incident happened awake, and reproduced somehow differently while asleep to suit the story that your brain produces.

Example:
Awake -
Go to school, chase by dog, came to school late, scolding from teacher, long hours of school, went home wet cause of rain, get scolding from mother cause of wet clothes, fell asleep due to tiredness.

Dream -
Mother scolding, at school, students friends laughing, run way from mother, go out of school, get chase from teacher, and suddenly awake.

So you see, in the dream it does has some similarity of what happened during awake hours. It's how the dream jumble it up so that it would make a storyline. In a dream, it is hard to remember the correct incident of what happen , it's what "pop" out of our idea that makes it a weird storyline.

Here what I like to share with you, I read this somewhere, it says, for example you dream of someone nurse washing her hand on a basin, her back is facing you, you slowly approach her....If you are scared...The nurse turns around, her hand are full of blood, her face starts to melt and bones starts to show.....
......What if you're not scared and didn't let your imagination run wild.

....The nurse turns around, and in her hand is the most cutest kitten you ever seen, she is giving that poor kitten a bath.

So we can control our dreams, if we control our emotions and our imagination.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Leading the way

In a team, each individual team members has it's own job scope to do. Each team has a leader. Mistakes happens when the leader rely on each of the team member to do their designated job scope.
A good leader who thinks ahead of how to resolve a difficult situation and work along with the team members on his opinions. A leader doesn't mean that everyone has to follow all of his/her commands and instructions, but to suggest a command and observe and evaluate whether his/her instructions are made clear or acceptable.
A Leader takes good care of each of his/her team members. Which team member will follow a leader who doesn't take care and concern on them?
A leader job is a difficult one, but it's doesn't have to be all on him/her, the burden can be shared equally and hence each team member will understand and help along with the leader.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Handphones

What do you look out for when you decided that you're buying a new handphone for yourself. Ofcourse you would look out for a specific handphone that is the lastest model in the market and has the best features.
the truth is that there is no "perfect" phone in the market that suits our needs, it's how you make out of that phone to suit our needs. In short, it will never satisfy us unless we are satisfied of what we got.

Just like having someone in your life as in a relationship between both sex. If you expect the opposite sex to suit you, it will never work out. But in end you have to suit in, blend, and adapt to his/her own personal behavior that makes you a better person in a relationship.
Each person has it's own flaws, just like the handphone. Some handphone has FM Radio and lack in Mp3 Player, while another phone has both FM Radio and Mp3 player but it lacks in unique outer design. Like a person, if you go for the looks, maybe he/she may have a attitude problem, or, if you go for the sweet tender loving person, but he/she has some physical features that is not in your own favor.
The best is go for the "inside content". It's better finding someone who loves you, than loving someone who doesn't loves you.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Brain

I love to ponder. And so happen while at work i was reading the newspaper and there was an article on a book titled Soduku, i tried one of their problems, by the way soduku is a kind of puzzle where there's total of 54 boxes, and the rule is you have to fill it up with number 1 to 9 only once on each vertical boxes and horizontal boxes. When i read the rules it got my brain excited. So i decided to buy the book. The book consist of 201 puzzles with 5 diffrent difficulty levels.
One thing good about this Soduku Puzzle is that other than solving the puzzle it self, you will discover many ways to solve it, some of the method even i would'nt think of it.

The brain is just like any other muscle that is on your body, the more you train it, the better it gets.
Just like if you train your right arm only, your left arm would be weaker tan your right. So any one can be a Human Calculator, Anyone can be a Master in memorising things. All you have to do is train your mental abilities. It's the only way to get it done. Work it.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

The path that leads to your destiny.

Questions
Does everything that you do each day has it's purpose or just part of your plan that has to be carried out?
Is it just mere coincidence that things happened in the present is related to the past?
Do you really have a choice to change your future?

The Story
For example, a girl of age 19 years old, who wanted be a musician. She got this inspiration from her father who loves to play the piano during his free time. She has special interest in the violin, but unfortunately she can't afford to buy one, so she decided to find a part time work. The days are tough and no job vacancies, she looked everywhere for a job. 3 Weeks of searching ends as a friend of hers named jack, who worked in a restaurant has a job vacancy.
Months has pass, and she really enjoyed working with her friend jack. She is so grateful to have such a friend who has help her get a job, as with a few months pay, she is able to buy her dream violin. Her relationship with Jack grows, and they started dating each other during their off days.
One the 3rd pay, she has sufficient money to buy her violin. She was so happy and decided to bring along Jack. The minute she told him that she wanted to buy a violin, Jack smiled widely. She discovered that Jack too has a violin at his home, and often plays at a concert performing for various musical functions. She too delighted to have someone sharing the same interest as hers.

Thoughts
then came the my own thoughts...
what if she didn't plan to buy the violin, will she meet jack?
What if she manage to get a Job without Jack, will she be in a relationship?
What if her interest was not actually the violin, and it is the piano?
Is it her destiny to meet a person who has the same interest hers?
Or is it just pure coincidence?

These story shows the path that leads to each and everyone's destiny, we are able to choose. Either way we will reach the end, it's the journey that makes the difference, and that journey makes us think more before deciding which option is better.
Like in the story, it started with her own heart, her intention of becoming a musician. She chooses the violin, if she chooses the piano and follows her dad's passion, it will lead to a different journey but in end she will meet jack. ( the story continues below ). With intention and decision, she carried out her Plan, inoder to succeed she must earn some money by finding a job, through her job she found jack.
Let see what if, she chooses the piano.

The Alternate Story
For example, a girl of age 19 years old, who wanted be a musician. She got this inspiration from her father who loves to play the piano during his free time. She has special interest in the violin. Looking at her father who plays the piano well, she decided to join her father a let her father teach her how to play the piano.
Months passes by, and her skill for the piano is improving very well. Her father is very impress with her. Not long after that her father decided to make her join a musical band, performing for some functions. She was so glad, that her father go all the way to make her piano skill recognized.
During the musical function, various musician played their instruments, and so did she. Everyone applause and cheered. Then while she was back in the audience seat to watch the rest of the musicians play, she saw Jack, her long lost friend. Jack on stage gave her a smile while playing his violin.
after the whole event, they meet up and talked about how impressive both of them played their instruments. They exchanged numbers, and went on a date the next day, and began their relationship.

Thoughts
As you can see, they are fated to meet each other, but on which decision that they made, that makes their journey a whole different story.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wheel of Life

Ever heard of the saying "Wheel of Life" or fate or destiny?
It's like whatever you do, it will come back to you. Or something like for today it's your day and another day will some other people's day.

Come to think of it, it's like retribution and reward. If you do something to others, and it hurts their feelings, one day others will do a similar thing that will hurt your feelings.
But sometimes, we do things without thinking twice, often acted out through instinct or through our own emotions.
But when the so called wheel rotates and it's our own time to feel how they feel, by then we would think back, these things happen similarly to how we treated the other person in the past.
We can never run away from it as it will happen and we have to handle it.
Unless, for example, if you wouldn't mind people disturbing you, then by all means disturb others, as they will disturb you back. But not in a case where you really like to disturb others but doesn't want others to disturb you.

Monday, August 01, 2005

For today

No one will read your Blog unless, they have an interest in your life, knows you well and wants to find out more of what you do, has a common interest, and last of all, knows that you got a Blog.

Time now is 3:08pm. Soon it will be 3:30pm then 7:00pm get ready for work, then 8:00pm starts work, then 1:00am do some desk manning at work, then 7:00am get ready to go home, then 10:00am reaches home have breakfast and ready to sleep,then 7:00pm wakes up for my 2nd night shift and getting ready, then 8:00pm starts work, then 1:00am do some desk manning at work, then 7:00am getting ready to go home, then 10:00pm reaches home and end of night duty.

Our life sometimes can be predictable, but those little things that happen in between that spice up our life.
The predictable ones are your daily routine, but how about years after years?
Like going to school, 6 years in primary school, 4 years in secondary school, those are the long years and memorable years that carries you right to this very day.
Remember, the past can be both painful and sweet at the same time. Those are the important ingredient for the future.

Meaningful Thoughts

Something that you enjoy doing doesn't mean you're good at it.
Something that you're good at it doesn't mean you're enjoying it.

For me, I like thinking games, like chess and puzzle games, but I come think of it, I actually not an expert in that area. I wouldn't see myself winning it or becoming skillful, in fact I enjoy playing it.

Another case is that I'm good at action games like first person shooting games, and action fighting games. And I can say for myself, I'm quite skill in that area and actually won various games that I've played. But I tend to play less of those games.

So is it true that if you tend to Enjoy something doesn't mean you have to be good at it? And Being good at it have that lack of enjoyment?

So how about work and carrier?
Finding a work that I Enjoy it? Or Skill in doing it?
Well I would choose Skill, with skill you can overtake others, but with just pure enjoyment for your own entertainment, would get you anywhere as there's others who is in the scope of your so call enjoyment is actually skillful than you.

Example, if I enjoy playing chess, there's others who is skillful then me, so in the end I'm losing in my own dream game.
But if I'm skill in playing action games, I would have the possibilities of outbeat the rest and became a champion.

So it's either the mind set of others and your own interest.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Late Night TV Series

Just finished watching a TV series show title, Tru Calling starrring Eliza Dushku. A good show, about this girl who has a gift of premonitions.
She studies medical and worked as a assistant at a town morgue. Usually she would dream of things before it actually happen. The dream would began as a sequence of events and lead to a dead person in the morgue, which the dead person who suddenly call her and say "Help me.." And her dream would fade and she woke up, it's her so called job to help that dead person from dying. Following back to how the person dies would in end save that person life. But there's always obstacles in her path from succeeding her mission.

It's kinda cool in away that in the show she could dream of something before it happened.
For my case, I think it's my job environment that makes me always dreaming about ambulance cases or something that related to ambulance job. My Dream would be like, going to a case, seeing someone about to jump down, and in my dream that person did jumped and miss the air bag.
Maybe I should pay attention to my dream, maybe I too can find a clue or a hint to what going to happen in reality.

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

LOL!

Oh i'm sooo back dated!
I started reading the newspaper and discovered that this Blog thingy is actually made some people famous, winning some Blog awards or something.
When i started writing a Blog, i just thought it's just like a "dairy" or a "journal" where you write and having the knowledge that someone out there is reading it.
Hmmm i actually did'nt actually read other's people Blogs, except those who i knew.
I find that it will be more meaningfull if someone open a topic and start discussing. Well maybe that's my nature, just love to discuss and say what you really think of the topic. I've join this online website that allows me to do so. SO! of anyone reads this do join
http://www.neatvibe.com/
Well this is an invitation to those who are reading this. My username will be FrostDrone.
Do add me once you're done :)
Oh by the way, this is not a advertiment.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

A Day in a Life

The time is 5.12am, just finished reading the newspaper and read about an article about Blog, well I agree that Blogging does help to relieve stress, help a person to let out his thoughts into writing it down hence might be able to solve his/her own problems. I wanted to blog every incident that I've encounter. As they say if you can't use the computer to access the internet to blog, you can always think of other way to do it, like, emailing it via handphone :)

Currently work,so far only 2 ambulance cases for the night. Right now resting in my own domitory waiting for 8am to come.The skies are red, hopefully it doesn't rain. Lying down still smell of blood from the previous case. I had lost count
since when I didn't sleep at night. My friend said it not human not to sleep at night as we are a day creature,I explain that I did get my 8hr of sleep,its just that those 8hrs are during the day.Maybe there's a reason why I started not sleeping at night,maybe I started to enjoy the nightly enviroment,being alone.

Monday, July 25, 2005

The Trap

What would you do if you know that you're walking right into a trap? Would you, avoid the trap? Or just walk into it and be prepared to deal with the trap?

Come to think of it, life is just like the trap. Sometimes you know what going to happen in life, but somehow some ways that you just walked into it and deal with what's the consequences. Like a bad example if shoplifting, the person knows what will happen if he shoplift, he'll get caught. ( Same as the trap, he/she know that by walking that way he/she will fall into the trap ). The person thinks that what if he didn't get caught? He would be carrying away a valuable item. Soon after that he did shoplift, and just as he expected, he got caught red handed.

Although the person know that shoplift = getting caught. He still do it. Just like how I said it, if you know that you're walking right into a trap? Would you, avoid the trap? Or just walk into it and be prepared to deal with the trap? He walked right into the trap that he knows it's there, but he just did it and not prepared of the outcome. That's a fool who didn't think.

With that analyst, it makes me think that every moment you have to think and analyze the items surround you, knowing which is a trap, is there any conpiracy going on around you, anyone talking behind you. Although some of these things you can know what's been going on, but in the end, it will be like walking into the trap.

Handling it

One of the days when you feel lonly and seems that everyone is against you. Nothng that you do please them, all they see it that you did'nt do to what they want. They speak in harsh words, all making fun of you. Well that's what happening to me. I feel like bursting out, speak out and tell them how i feel like,

"Hey you, don't you think scolding me would make me better?"

or

"Are you trying to say that scolding me due to a fault of mine? or is it just because i did'nt do the way you wanted?"

Well some action i agree that it should be commented, but you can always say it nicely, what's wrong with saying it nicely? or Saying it more like a friend say like.. "hello friend, ..." "i think it should be done this way..." With those words it makes the littleless mistakes in your normal job life more easier to handle.

Now comes the Handling of the situation. How i cope with it? Sometimes words that are harsh to me, it does hurt my heart and my feelings. And sometimes i do feel that it really unfair that the one who's scolds someone is the one who actualy did'nt do a thing! They just sit there and watch, sees anything wrong and point out, WTF! If you think you're that good and you can do all the things right, you might as well do it. If you're soooo lazy and does'nt care of doing it, atleast just Shut Up!

Back to the topic of handling it. How i handle it? by treating yourself, do something that make yourself at ease. Like sit alone under the void deck eatting ice cream, have a few nice drinks alone at night, and last of all, lettng it out on a blog.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Chemical Reactions

Have you ever felt that feeling, when you've with someone, that feeling of connection.
Just like back in the old school days when there's a girl that sits right beside you next to your table. But strangely, there are some girls that are on that same class, you just treated her like a sister or like a old pal.

Why is it with some people of the same sex, you can get along with, and some people with the same sex you don't. Likewise, you will get along with some of the people of the opposite sex, but not other some other opposite sex. Is it something to do with what they call it "Chemistry" ?

It's the face that we see 1st that immediately connects us to that person. I know the answer, try finding out for yourself. Different people have different features, and similar features will get us connected with on another.

Planning

Everyday, people plan in order to et what they want. Things don't just fall together and form up to be just a coincidence, it actually all planned up. It's that shitty feeling that I feel when I found out something in life it's actually planned up, what worst is that I knew the plan, and I just let it happened. If I can, I can back fire their plan but, what the heck, I'm the type that go with the flow, you know, the type that don't mess with fate, if it's fated, then it shall be for a reason.

Example, like there's a guy name jack who is very good in his subject in school. There are some jealous student, with him in his class. Jack would score 98/100 or even 100/100 in all subjects, but these 3 jealous people only score 89/100 average. They have a nice plan, that if, Jack would be out of their way, the 3 of them would be so called top in the class without anyone beating the score.

So the 3 guys carried out their plan, during exam, they all accuse Jack of cheating. Bad enough the teacher wrote Jack's name down and ask him to meet at the principle office.

3 days later, the teacher called up the 3 guys which accused Jack of cheating. In the office, there stood Jack along with the Principle, in the end, the Principle gave the 3 guys a stern warning due to trying to fake Jack's cheating.

As you see, Jack knew the 3 guys are jealous, jack knew they going to do something to him, jack played along, and in the end back fire to the 3 guys that tried to topple Jack.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

The Puffs

Good timing to take a puff

1. While waiting for the bus.
2. Walking on a great distance.
3. While drinking.
4. While on the dance floors.
5. When thinking too much.
6. When feeling sad.
7. When the crave for a puff comes.
8. After eating.
9. Before work starts.
10. Inbetween work time.


Bad timing when to take a puff

1. When you suspected there's a gas leak.
2. On a rainy day without an umbrella.
3. While jogging.
4. When you're about to sneeze.
5. When the bus is arriving.
6. When feeling very sleepy.

Insomnia

taken from the website
http://www.stanford.edu/~dement/insomnia.html


What is Insomnia?

Insomnia is difficulty in initiating and/or maintaining sleep. It is a term that is used often to indicate any and all stages and types of sleep loss. Insomnia is not a disorder, it is a symptom.

There are different kinds of insomnia:

Sleep Onset Insomnia (Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome): A disorder in which the major sleep episode is delayed in relation to the desired clock time that results in symptoms of sleep onset insomnia or difficulty in awakening at the desired time.

Idiopathic Insomnia: A lifelong inability to obtain adequate sleep that is presumably due to an abnormality of the neurological control of the sleep-wake system. The insomnia is long-standing, commonly beginning in early childhood, sometimes since birth.

Psychophysiological Insomnia: A disorder of somatized tension (conversion of anxiety into physical symptoms) and learned sleep-preventing association that results in a complaint of insomnia and associated decreased functioning during wakefulness.

Childhood Insomnia (Limit-Setting Sleep Disorder): Primarily a childhood disorder that is characterized by the inadequate enforcement of bedtimes by a caretaker with resultant stalling or refusal to go to bed at the appropriate time.
Another kind of insomnia that generally affects children is called Sleep-Onset Association Disorder. This disorder occurs when sleep onset is impaired by the absence of a certain object or set of circumstances, such as being held, rocked or nursed; television watching, radio listening, etc. ( Could be true for the Peanuts cartoon character Linus and his blanket?)


Food Allergy Insomnia: A disorder of initiating and maintaining sleep due to an allergic response to food allergens. It is typically associated with the introduction of a new food or drink, i.e., cow's milk.

Enviornmental Insomnia (Enviornmental Sleep Disorder): A sleep disturbance due to a disturbing enviornmental factor that causes a complaint of either insomnia or excessive sleepiness. (How about the garbage man or the leaf blower early in the morning!?)

Transient Insomnia (Adjustment Sleep Disorder): Represents sleep disturbance temporally related to acute stress, conflict or enviornmental change causing emotional agitation.

Periodic Insomnia (Non 24-Hour Sleep-Wake Syndrome): Consists of a chronic (lasting a long time) steady pattern consisting of 1-2 hour daily delays in sleep onset and wake times in an individual living in society.

Altitude Insomnia: An acute (short and sharp course, not chronic) insomnia usually accompanied by headaches, loss of appetite, and fatigue, that occurs following ascent to high altitudes. (Unless you are a mountain climber or a mountain goat, this kind of insomnia won't apply)

Hypnotic-Dependency Insomnia (Hypnotic-Dependent Sleep Disorder): Characterized by insomnia or excessive sleepiness that is associated with tolerance to or withdrawal from hypnotic medications.

Stimulant-Dependent Sleep Disorder: Charcterized by a reduction of sleepiness or suppression of sleep by central stimulants, and resultant alterations in wakefulness following drug abstinence.

Alcohol-Dependent Insomnia (Alcohol-Dependent Sleep Disorder): Characterized by the assisted initiation of sleep onset by the sustained ingestion of alcohol that is used for its hypnotic effect.

Toxin-Induced Sleep Disorder: Characterized by either insomnia or excessive sleepiness produced by poisoning with heavy metals or organic toxins.
How is insomnia treated?

Each case of insomnia is tailored for that particular person's needs. Methods used for treatment include behavioral modification, following good sleep hygiene practices, light therapy, and occasionally medication is prescribed for a short period of time.

Sleepless Nights

List of stuff to do when sleepless at night.

1. Look out the window, enjoy the cool night breeze.
2. Surf the net.
3. Read Books which i've never read in years.
4. Browse through old newspaper.
5. Take a short rest on bed, thinking of what had happened.
6. Continue surfing net finding informations.
7. Entered MIRC and picking a fight with annoying people.
8. Finding people on MSN who's not asleep.
9. Watching tv.
10. Make instant noodles.
11. Playing with furry animals.
12. Surf the net for scary stories.
13. Watch movies.
14. Making plans for tomorrow.
15. Go on a night bicycle rides.
16. taking a walk around the neighbourhood.
17. Installing games.
18. Listening to music.
19. Iron the clothes for tomorrow.
20. Writing a blog about yourself.
21. Masturbate.
22. Waiting for the morning to come.

Words of poison that goes around

Just like animals, some animals are poisonous, some helps you, some accompany you, some even attack you, some just come to you because you brings them food.

People have those characteristics in them, that's why it's important to observe, but sometimes, it's just that instinct that let us know that this person is "safe" when it's around us.

Bad example is the poisonous words that people pass around. They would tell others that this person has this certain character, for example he/she would go around telling that this person has an intolerable character( like being lazy, boring, worthless, lousy). If those who actually believe it, then the his/her impression towards that person is there.
Never let other people words influence you on how to think towards another person, althought the fact is there, avoid having bad impression about a certain person.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Knowing vs Realizing

Which is better, knowing that something has happened or realizing that something that has happened?
Last two days, i knew others plans for that day. And i knew what will the end results. But, what made me hate it it's because when i realize that they did that way towards me. When good times comes, all be together, when bad times comes, it's on our own.
It's that heart that makes a person a good one or a bad one.

Example:
One day you when shopping, let's say you saw a nice shirt, and it's the color that you wanted, but only one of that shirt is left, you decided to buy it, when u realize that it has some kind of smell.
Would you buy it and take home to wash it, or just forget about it and look for other clothes.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Predictions

Have you ever thought that at that very split second that something will about to happen, and it actually happened as you expected?
is it predictions or in another case, you unknowingly know what the person is thinking, is it mind reading?

Idealogy : A person walks towards the door, what do you think will happen next?
Yes, he will open the door and walked out. It may be a simple example
but try on another example, you see someone rocks a chair, what could
happen next? The person will fall or will he continues rocking his chair?

If you can be more attentive in the things that surrounds you, more likely you know what's going to happen as they all have patterns. Things that leads to another things.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

Dawn is just around the corner

This problem of mine, not sleeping at night has been since the past 10days ago. Maybe it's something that's in my mind or is it because i lost my favourite pillow. Whatever it is, i'm still not sleeping at night as i always do for the past 23years ago.

Some say depression can be the cause, some say good sleeping habits are not practiced. What worst is that right now i'm going off to work. Time now is 6.05am

Raging Fury by FrostDrone ( Demo )

The background sound is from the song title Raging Fury by FostDrone.
The chant like tones are inspired by the imagination of walking in a cold dark night, as cold night breeze blows in your face, not knowing what lies ahead of you, but knowing there's an end to the lonely night journey.

An Introduction

This is an interview with Me and Myself.

Q : Tell me more about yourself.

A : Well, spending most of my time spacing out, dreaming away, thinking, wondering and imagining. I do need a place to keep track of what i've been thinking about, what a good place than to Blog it.


Q : What's with the nick?

A : Since i entered the so called internet world, everyone has a nick name, well once my nick was Trancer, and changed it to Drone which stays for quite sometimes, use it while i played online games and LAN gaming. Recently 3 years ago i changed to FrostDrone, an additional to the Drone nick. Actually in fact before that i thought of Glazier, but then it just does'nt match me. For a few months i used FrostDrone but out of a moment a nick just pass my thoughts, it's GyrocTyne, well it has no meaning, just something that i thought about and it come to me. Through my own finding, Gyroc is actually some sort of thing that you associate with the sky or aerodynamic stuff, and Tyne is a name of a place, well what the heck, a unique nick that just come to my mind.


Q : Does spacing out has any benefits? I think it's a waste of time.

A : Actual fact it is a waste of time, but for example when i'm in the bus or in a long journey, it's good to think about stuff, makes your memory and thoughts moves.


Q : You mentioned that you liked to ponder and imagine stuff, that really does can affect your performance in your daily life.

A : Well, when it comes to work, it's work, and when things get so bored, escaping to your world of imagination and makes castles in the sky. :)


Q : Do you treat Blog as a dairy?

A : Not at all, i treat it more as a journal. People will in one way or another read this posts and information will be taken. As when i did this blog, i know that people will read it, so i'll post something to them that's worth the reading time :)


Q : So what if there is no anyone that is intrested in your posts. Is'nt posting into this Blog a waste of time?

A : Not at all, There is someone that reads my posts, Cause you are reading this.


Q : one last question, why is'nt there any pictures or any images to see? It would be good.

A : I'm working on it, but i still prefer words then images cause, my whole intention is information, if they are distracted by my pictures, then no reason to read.


Q : Atleast a picture of you, is'nt it too much?

A : :) I see about it.


Q : That's about enough for today, oops i ment for this morning, by the way, why are'nt you sleeping? it's 1.10am in the morning?

A : I'm sleeping during the day, and usually im awake from 6pm to 7am in the morning. Maybe it's my sleeping habits.

Monday, July 11, 2005

Sleepless but Tired

Been 10days, asleep during the day and awake at night.
Does sleeping actually makes you fresh?

Found out that i'll be fresh when i did'nt sleep, but the only disadvantage is that i'll be tired.
An example, it's like when you stay awake till 3am, and decided to take a nap, when u woke up let's say around 5am, you'll be all tired, eyes unable to open at all.

IDEALOGY : To stay fresh, always take your 8 hours of sleep, after that you can last up to 24 hours until you'll need hat 8 hours of sleep.

Equation : 8 hours of sleep + 16 hours of awake = 24 hours in a day.

This equation works on certain people, and if you sleep less, you tend to pay back what you owe which is taking naps inbetween hours.

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Files in the Folder which is located in the Hard Drives

People have diffrent needs and diffrent people has diffrent story of what they think of life and what life means to them.
Some people do things cause they think it's the right thing to do or it's the only way to do it.
Each file in our computer has diffrent functions, some files are related to one another while some files are alone and has no functions at all just some information.
In a way, we are just like the files in the computer, each of us has it's own functions and diffrent reactions when executed. Some people are like Text files, where informations and data can be stored and viewed easily. While some are .exe files where they will run and do it's own programming and some .exe files requires other files inorder to execute properly. A major software includes a auto run file, exe files, zip files, .dll files and others.. Software are like companies where we work, some workers has diffrent task to do. Diffrent task requires diffrent section in the department, as same as folders or sub folders that when needed it can be easily excess.
When there is a corrupted file or a file that you don't really need it, you would delete it, same as firing a worker. If there is low in disk space, the Boss will delete some unused files to there will be more space available or inorder to increase Ram size, same as retrenchment.
So, as computer and human can be similar, we are just another file in the whole system, although we are so, make sure we will be the best file that is created with important functions and good realibility.

Friday, June 17, 2005

Custom made clothes

What do you look out for when buying clothes, is the size your 1st priority or the design?
Just like finding a carrier or life partners, is it how manageable that work or partner that's makes you be with them the longest or is it the appearance or promissing work scope that makes your choice the ideal ones.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

To hear, we must first be quiet.

Source of Noise can be from objects, surroundings and even human speech. "Noise" too can be from ourself or our own thoughts. Hundreds of thoughts flows in our mind.

Example,

As for today, have you ever remembered how many types of cars you seen today?
Or are most of the drivers that you see today along the roads are females or males?
Most of time, we would only notice a vehicle only if it's unique or maybe perhaps the car almost hit you, and you remembered every detail about that car.

Bottom line is, Just like the cars along the road, cars passing by, if we did'nt pay attention or just did'nt notice anything strange, we would just see cars along the road passing by.

Just like our thoughts, hundreds or maybe thousands of thoughts flow in and out of our mind, only a vivid memory of what it is or what's all about, and then we will forget about it.

"To Hear, We Must First Be Quiet"

If we think too much, we will not be able to focus on the things that happen around us. Thinking too hard is like, keep on worrying about something, panic, stress about something that bothering you, or even thinking out of context.

Have a clear sound mind, like the roads without cars. So if there is a car that passes by, sure you will be able to know. But if there is a road will full of cars, sure it does'nt matter cause there is lots of cars and you will not be able to notice any one of them.

Bottom line is, Keep your mind clear, so if there is any bright ideas, it sure will work.
If your mind if "full" or "stress out", you will not be able to think properly or focus on the problem in hand.

Thursday, May 05, 2005

What you think of what you see

This is an example for reference,

Sam showed to his friend a pen which is black in color. Keep in mind that Sam did'nt tell to his friend what the ink color of the pen.

Sam: Hi Jack, i'll like to show something to you.

Sam show the pen.

Sam: What is the color of this pen?

Jack without any second thought says.

Jack: Black of course.

Sam: Oh ic, here you go.

Jack: Why?

Sam: The only way to find out if your answer is correct.

Jack holds the pen and looks at him with full of questions in his mind.

Sam: Hmm a Black pen? Is it the outer covering of the pen is black that makes you assume that the Ink is Black? Or is it due to everyday in life whenever you wanted to know what is the color of the Ink you see it from the outer covering?

Jack still in confusing.

Jack: Well i guess it's Black as the covering is Black so i'm going to test it.

Jack took out a paper and began scribbling. To his amazement, the pen has no ink!

Jack: What? A pen with no ink?

Sam: Yes, the pen is actually has no color at all. If you wish to assume it's a Black pen then by all means, but no matter how Black that pen is, now it is useless as it has no ink.


Bottom Line:

We usually judge a book by it's cover, that the basic reation of us or method that we use to know something that we see that we are unsure of.

When we see a person for the 1st time, we usually assume and judge him by the looks and by the appearance, just like looking at the pen and guessing that the pen is Black in Ink. It's only when we start to test the pen then we get to know what color is the pen is. As like the Pen example, We can judge what color of the pen by looking on the covering, Yes that's true it would probally contains Black Ink. Untill we test it then we can know if there is actually any Ink in there.

So, when judgeing a person, don't always rely on the 1st covering of the Pen, assumtion can lead to huge mistake. Example, if you decided to buy a Black Ink pen and just grab one, when you reach home, you tend to discover that the pen has no Ink.
This similar example can be use for finding a relationship, don't jump to any person that you fall in love with, test him out, see if the pen is really Black.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

How you think of it.

What do you think, is it the things that we do that results in the outcome of our own own doings? Or the outcome of what we do is the result of our own doings?

This is my own way of asking the old phase
"The means justify the End or the End justify the means."

Just think of it, before you do anything in your life, what do you want out of it actually, is it the result is the cause of a series of methods done or is it the way how you work to get the desired result.

Example:

A Girl want to go to school.

1) The girls came to school in time because she woke up early.

2) The girl took a taxi just to get to school early.

In answer (1), the ends justify the means. She came to school early because of her previos action which is waking up early.
In answer (2), the means justify the end. The girl wants to get to school early and found a solution which is taking a taxi that would speed up her journey to school.

If you would ponder for a moment. Both answers 1 and 2, the girl did get to school early, but what matters is the means which is the reason why she wanted to get to school early.
In life, you must have a reason why you do somethings that you do, in that way, it could make a simple coming to school early a hard thing or a normal thing to do.

in another words, although you have a problem, like you require to come to school early, solve the problem by waking up early. But why is taking the taxi is'nt a good solution? Maybe because in solution 2 which is taking the taxi, in another way means you are late hence you need to take a taxi inoder to acheive your goal. While if you woke up early, if anything that is unpredictable happens, you could always go to plan B which is taking the taxi.

My own words of thoughts: When acheive your goals, always have a Plan B to your solution. Not a Plan B for your Goals. Plan B for your solution is when you have a solution in mind, think of the things that can go wrong and have back up plan to solve that problem. Rather then Plan B for your goals which means if you can't acheive your goal, then you would acheive other goals.
remember, Goals are ment to be acheived, not as a option to be acheived. Hence bottom line is, choose proper goals, not proper method of acheiving it.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

All About Yourself

Have you ever felt that people just come up to you just because they are intrested in you? Maybe yes.
Have you ever felt that people just come up to you just because they want to help you? maybe not.

People usually just think about their own need, what they want, what they don't like, what they need. But have they ever stop and think about what others need?

Just like the customer service at any shopping center. Shoppers comes to them and start asking "Excuse me, do you know where is this shop located?"
Well maybe it's becos their job is to provide that service.
What if u are just a normal shopper, did anyone ever come up to you and ask you teh same question?

People, some people who "offer" help some are genuine some are fake, just for their own satisfaction and some for their own need, it's hard to find someone who help just for the sake of helping.

They come to you, sadi they can help you, but what they can't do is to assist you, intract with you. All they do is ignore you. They don't even notice that you are there.

Offering help, just for the sake of offering and giving a crappy help is worst.
Help with the full intention that you want to ease that person pain or problems. Smoothen their sorrows. Some who receive this kind of treatment do mistaken for Love as Love do require this treatment. But for teh sake of Helping genuinely is also possible.

What is Love, is it just a feeling, a hunch, adoring someone, falling for someone, being touched deeply by someone? Love is all that and much more but the most important thing about love is, Missing Someone. To know weather you love someone..you will feel Missed. No matter how much u love that someone, give him/her presents and kisses him/her all night and all day, and saying "i love u" all year long, and when that person is gone. There is no missed feeling in side your heart. Life can just go on...that is not proper.

Bottom line is. WHat is Love? love is when u really miss that person in your life. That is love. Without that missed feelings, it's just a love for sex, features, body figure, money, that's all.

Friday, April 01, 2005

Mistaken Love

What is Love, is it just a feeling, a hunch, adoring someone, falling for someone, being touched deeply by someone? Love is all that and much more but the most important thing about love is, Missing Someone. To know weather you love someone..you will feel Missed. No matter how much u love that someone, give him/her presents and kisses him/her all night and all day, and saying "i love u" all year long, and when that person is gone. There is no missed feeling in side your heart. Life can just go on...that is not proper.

Bottom line is. WHat is Love? love is when u really miss that person in your life. That is love. Without that missed feelings, it's just a love for sex, features, body figure, money, that's all.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Needs

Have you ever notice that everyone go to someone because he/she needs something from someone. Well i just notice it, well not that im just a dumb ass who just notice obvious things, like duh! but just think of it, sit for a moment and just ponder, have anyone just come to you any other most probable reason other than need something from you? Like example, someone come and say these few lines to you,
"Hi, do you have a pen so i can borrow?"
"I need your advise on ..."
"Well i got this problem, as you can see.."
"Hello hello, can you please assist me on..."
"Excuse me, do you know how can i go to this place?"
"Have you seen.."
"Come with me, i need to tell you something.."
As you can see, people come to you everyday just to Need something from you, either need to assist them, help them, tell you something so that you can do something about it. But when they do not "Need" you, sometimes they just talked about themself and what they been doing, sharing their experience to you. But sometimes when it's your turn to share your thoughts, they just put a deaf ears and just can't wait for you to end your line so that they can continue talking about themself.
Well here come the beautiful part, what if...someone come to you and say,
"Hi, how can i assist you?"
"Here, have my pen."
"I'll show you anywhere you like to go."
"I know how to do this, would you allow me to show it to you?"
It's just a nice way to approach people, be to their elper rather than going to people asking to help you.
It's better to listen to people than talk and expect people to listen.

Saturday, February 12, 2005

Fisherman Story

Lots of people complain, just because of a bit of inconvenience that they experience.

One day a fisherman brings his 15 year old son out to catch some fish. It was a hot and sunny day and it has been 4 hours out in the sea without any fish caught yet. The boy got inpatience.

He said to his Dad, "Why does it takes so long to catch a fish."

The Dad just sit there and continued fishing on this boat.

The boy continued, "Why do we have to catch a fish on such a hot day."

The Dad just sit still and concentrate on his fishing.

The Boy for more irritated, he started to rock the boat to get his dad attention. He shouted "Dad! I wanna go Home!"

Then suddenly, the boat topple over and both of them got into the sea, luckly his Dad knows how to swim and he help his son and swam back to shore. After reaching the shore his Dad said "If only you give me a bit of patience, i can give you alot of fish, but now since that you are impatience, we must now make a new boat before we could catch some fish."

Friday, February 11, 2005

Worries

Everyone feels worries sometimes or someday at some event or reasons. Worry that you would fail the exams, worry of what your parents would say to you, worry of which school you would end up with, worry of who your love mate is and so on and so forth. It's ok to feel worry cause you would be more prepared and more cautious of what you do now in the present. If a person who does not worry, which means he does'nt concern so much about the outcome.
Worrying too much is just something that you keep on thinking too much on a particular action that has various outcome. For example, a person studying for his coming test, he worry that what happens if he fail, if he fails this test he would possibly have to drop out from school, parents would scold him, teach would have to give him extra lessons, no more playng soccer, these are the outcome of his action which is failing the test. So what can we do to solve this.

Formula:

Object = Taking Test
Action = Failing the Test.
Outcome = Scolding from parents, No soccer, study more, extra remedial classes, possible drop out from school.

Due to multiple Outcome which is negative, the boy would worry too much, AND due to worrying too much he could not concentrate for his upcoming test. When he can't concentrate, he would definately Fail and the Outcome that he has predicted and worrying about would come true.

The only way to Solve it is...To Pass the Test. And how to pass the test, is just to concentrateand study well, how to study well, pay attention in class always and have extra tutoring. Well, if his mind set is to Pass and he has that confidence in him, he would not worry to much about the Outcome. So the new formula is,

Object = Taking Test.
Action = Pass the Test.
Outcome = Parents would be proud, possibly able to play as a reward for studying well.

We as a tutor or techers or even parents can help those with worrying problems, ask them what are their Intention in doing something, if their intention is wrong, the outcome would not be desireble. Know why they are doing it and what's the reason for doing it. Example from the previous, Taking the test is a way to upgrade his skill and knowledge, for his benefit when he go up one level in study. Possibly explain good jobs require good knowledge. So people who worries can be help and even US ourself can help ourself to stop worrying and to keep calm for a moment to think, Why are we worrying, what's the Action that we are taking that worries us.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Fate Reveals A Clue

In life there will always be a situation where you have make decisions. And the out come of your decisions will depend your future.
For example, there is a Fisherman, he is very hungry and has a choice to make, prepare his boat and fishing equipments and row the boat out in the open sea and Fish. Another choice is to travel to a far market and just buy a fish. But choice has it's own problems, if he go out in the sea, he might get some fish or no fish at all, and for the market, it is far and sometimes the fish would usually sold out quite fast. So what do you think will be his decision? To go out in the sea and try his luck, and work hard to get some fish to eat, or, to walk a long journey to go to the market just to find out if there is any fish for sale.
Both situation has the thing call "try your luck". But we have to think, which situation when happens we can work on it to achive our purpose, that is to get fish.
So, the answer i will tell you when there is a comment and i will tell you the reason why the choice is choosen better then the other one.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Judge The Book By It's Cover

Have you ever have in a situation when one look at that person's appearance and facial attributes you can instantly tell what type of person he/she is. It's our nature to judge people by how they look, and it's our own way of either to approach the person or stay away.
Some case where the person looks smart, wears a tie, a jacket, black shoes and a well comb hair. What's your 1st impression? A businessman maybe? or someone came back from work, or just a guy who is dress, overdress to impress. Then he began to speak, the way he express his language is well polished, speak with a smile, so you can be 60% sure that he works in some office or a full time salesman maybe.
As we can see, how we dress up and act infront of someone can sometimes be an indirect signal tell the other party of what you are without telling them or boasting about your past experiences.
But if could be quite misleading as like in the old kung fu fighting movies where there will be one guy wearing large circular hat, covering his head, drinking water, does'nt bothers anyone and sits quietly can turn out to be a skillfull fighter. Where the bad guys will always the one who is roudy and start to attract attention to everyone.
Conclusion, so if the other person who you are with acted diffrently or feels uncomfortable, do chack on your own appearance and your behaviour, not to ask him/her "hey what's wrong? Are you ok?" Obviously he/she will say ok as not to offend u in any way or another.

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Patience Runs In Your Blood

Last time i do wonder why some people are so patience and some are not.
From my point of view, it does have to do something from your past, how you are brought up and some cases are medical, and some are actually in your blood.
Though through horoscope does give us brief overall basic understanding what type of person he/she is by when the person is born.
I'm the type of person that belief that everyone can change, although sea water wil always be salty, we can take a glass of sea water and add them with plain water and it will be not that salty. Well obviously if u add plain water into the sea, it won't do much diffrence.
If there is anyone reading this post, please do share your comments with me about what u think of patience and how you relate in your daily life, as how you cope and how someone can hold that much patience within one self.

Monday, February 07, 2005

To Begin With

A pair of hands, a pair of legs and a Brain. All that is needed to do your daily task own your own. The only way to solve a problem is by thinking, not to think too hard or too complicated but to think smart.

"You can only see the bottom of the pond if the water is clear."

"To drink a water from a glass is to hold the glass with your hand and bring it to your mouth...maybe there is another way, the only solution is to think. "

"Nothing in this world is for free, to gain something you have to work for it."

"Control yourself, manage yourself, think for your needs and your flaws, work on it, solve it to make yourself a better person...No person can do it for you, you have to make it work on your own."

"Be close to yourself, know yourself as the only person who know yourself is Yourself. So be yourself."

: Drone :

Note: These words are for those who accept it, for those who does'nt accept, they have my fullest respect for their own way of thought. As diffrent people think diffrently but they acted the same. I hope you don't mind about my language usage, if it's irritates you please do close the window :D LOL!

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